one year later......................

oh............. my......... god..........
its been almost exactly one year. i cant believe it. i was just reading over the last few entries from last year....... some things are way different, and some havent changed at all. i still think boys suck, i still love hanging out at taco bell and walmart, when it comes to poetry, i still suck at it except for haikus (in which case i totally ROCK and challange you to a haiku war ANY DAY. i'll take you DOWN.), i'm still a virgin and i've still never had a bf, i've still never had pot (and that is SO not my fault. i blame Garth, Alex, Fiona, and about 5 other people. seriously... i'm game any time. just call me up (685-1326)(you thought i was just saying that, didnt you).), and i still get turned on by songs like Poison (Alice Cooper), like everything by Van Halen, and Phantom of the Opera music. on the other hand, my english sucks, my spelling sucks, i got in the habbit of not using punctuation in germany b.c the apostrophe was in an inconvenient place and now i just forget to use it, i get along with my family, i'm get irritated by people in general waaaaaaaay less, i dont know all the taco bell employees by name anymore, i dont do all the driving anymore, i'm unemployed (long boring story), and i'm about 10 pounds heavier. good times. i have NO idea what to say/where to start. it's so weird to be back, to be in the States. i swear waaaaaaaay too much. i was around children a lot today, and i said "shit" like 5 times. and when my baloon hat popped i said "fuck", but i dont think anyone heard that. sigh. its so hot. and i still havent found a satisfactory bathing suit. so hard. found some at H&M but the bottoms have like no butt-coverage. unacceptable. um, btw, i was looking at my old entries, um... what does "abject" mean? goddammit, i'm so retarded now. i actually said "babysitted' yesterday and meant it. my mom said to me after i finished talking "babysat." and i'm like "what?" and she's like "it's babysat." and i said "really? are you sure?" ahhhhhhh....... like even when she pointed it out to me i wasn't sure which was correct...... sooooooo sad. everyone's going to think i'm retarded at college in the fall. naja, so it goes. ach, read my first kurt vonnuget (sp?) book. slaughterhouse 5. he uses a lot of german in it. dont know if thats normal for him. anyway, didnt like it that much, but i've heard such great things about him, i decided i'll have to read another of his books sometime. i'm reading harry potter 6 now though. and i started "the tipping point", "guns germs and steel", and "the long way down". too much to do. i havent played flute since december. soooo bad. HAVE to start again. need to sleep too so i can get my voice back. i got drunk with skantown people for the first time ever last night. craaaaazy. thanks ab for inviting me...... and pat for the alcohol and pj pants....... good times. yeah, so not sure what else to say. there was this great song and i was listening to the lyrics (i guess i hadnt really listened well to this song before) and it was something about caressing music, but i cant remember anymore, so i guess i wont be posting any lyrics tonight. but i'll get at least one haiku up.
so yeah. love you all. shout out to all you in germany and elsewhere.